Fabrice Guerrier

Fabrice Guerrier is a Haitian-American writer and poet. He is the 2016 inaugural PEN Haiti Fellow. He holds a MA in Conflict Transformation from Eastern Mennonite University’s Center for Justice & Peacebuilding and a BS in International Affairs from Florida State University. He lives in Washington, D.C.

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The Universe of Fear

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They stopped my car at night

They took me out and my heart raced to the ends of history.

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I feared for my life

For my parents who knew I was black, young and a boy out on the streets of life.

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And for many in this world, I was a monster to their eyes

A black devil, a demon from Africa, of a story cultured in,

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Passed down from an era of white impunity

Living and breathing today, dormant deep in the subconscious mind

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I stepped outside during the night

And I saw the officer’s gun, a weapon.

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But to them my blackness was the weapon, a sin of being born a Negro

To be put away forever and be purified

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I looked upward at the night sky universe and saw the stars

How small I was, how small we were but could not fathom how vast this fear I felt

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How profoundly deep it reached, deep within my gut

This was my universe

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So many had perished never given the benefit of the doubt

Freddie Gray, Tamir Rice, Trayvon Martin, could I be next?

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Will I become another statistic lost in data?

Lost in the bureaucratic waters of white supremacy?

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Will I become another hash tag, universalized?

Washing away my hopes and dreams

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My laughers, my favorite shows and favorite foods

This fear, Oh my God!

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This fear how vast and unfathomable

Why have you created me of this world?

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